Letter to my selfless lover

To my selfless lover

You know who you are

Didn’t expect to like you

But I’ve always liked your car

here we are

First semester at lb state

My pussy becomes your escape

You introduce me to your beautiful city

Showed me the best views

Saying I’m pretty

Hyping me up at times I don’t expect it

I plan on returning the favor

Don’t you get it

forget her

That girl from your past

She left you

On a hunt to find some trash

Think with your brain

What is it saying

Brain freeze

ice cubes got me paraphrasing

My mouth around that dick

You rubbing on my clit

saying I taste so sweet

That I’m all you need

I’m your extra boost of confidence

feeling all complete

Got yourself a princess 👑

A new girl you can’t get enough of

fucks you like she’s in love

And you know I need it

attention from you

Gets my bed wet

you sparked my curiosity

been through trash recently

Couldn’t think straight

So here you go

A personalized letter

Don’t think I could have said it better


In my opinion: A millenial’s perspective on relationships

In my opinion, few know what they actually want. I am at this age where I don’t know if I should be looking for a committed relationship or just having fun and enjoying my 20s. I’m hoping that when I do meet the right guy he is going to add to my life and not take away from what’s important. I have this vision that it will all come together so easily and love will find a way to me just like it does in a Disney movie.beauty and the beast gif

My fellow millennials out there know what it’s like growing up in this crazy competitive world and how difficult it has gotten over the years & currently everyone is pushing for the same thing, success. It’s annoying because I find myself more focused on other peoples opinions. I ask myself how things will look from an outsiders perspective which really shouldn’t matter but somehow it does. In this age of new media and social media, we strive to live a picture-perfect life from the clothes we wear and places we go to the people we are seen with. I think it has affected the individuals we surround ourselves with too.

Recently, I have been hearing about the relationships that end over that “I can do better than him” thought. Someone in the relationship is unhappy because they think there is someone hotter or smarter or more put together out there and there might be in allthe little mermaid honesty..but if there is nothing wrong with the relationship in the first place, why mess up a good thing? (Wo)men break up with their S/O thinking that they are going to find something better and realize that there is more garbage out there than good genuine people. They always come back to that one person who brought them comfort and security. I guess that’s just a part of life..you live and you learn and you never really know what you have until its gone, but then its too late.

You know what they say, one (wo)man’s trash is another (wo)mans treasure..


Confidence is Key

These last few weeks have been interesting. Since moving to LB I have made many positive changes to my life.

  1. Eating clean and feeling lean

Food is fuel and your body is a temple. I grew up with a single mother who didn’t really have time to cook so fast food was a substantial part of my diet. It was either McDonald’s, Jack in the Box, or pizza. At home, all I had in the fridge were those frozen tv dinners or frozen chicken patties. Ughh…and those turkey cold cuts for sandwiches I can’t stand anymore. Even peanut butter and jelly grosses me out. Everyone in my family can cook and I come from a long line of chefs. When my parents were together they owned a Mediterranean restaurant and we had it for about two years before my mom decided to sell it. All of my aunts and uncles on both sides have owned restaurants at one point or another so I just feel like cooking is in my blood. I was so sick and tired of fast food that I picked up a few fresh ingredients and called my mom to get a few recipes. An hour later I was eating this amazing gourmet dinner that I made for super cheap! I have been saving so much money preparing my own meals and guess what?!?!? I FEEL AMAZING!


2. Push through those last few reps at the gym.. bikini me

I used to be super insecure and had major gymtimidation but it wasn’t until recently that I’ve learned to plug-in and try my best because the truth is, no one really knows what they’re doing at the gym. It was also hard to get out of bed in the morning. Getting a workout in before work sounded like a punishment but now I get excited because I feel so good after. Oh, and my roommate has been the best gym buddy a girl could hope for. She pushes me to get up in the morning and get my ass there and once I start I can’t stop.

Side note: I wear a waist trainer and it has helped me lose inches around my waist, the one area I was the most insecure about. I know waist trainers are getting a bad rep right now but it legit changed my life so if you’re even thinking about getting one I would say go for it but just don’t overdo it. You’re not gonna have a Kim K waist overnight..but you will in a few months with the right diet hahaha. I’m all for them! I got mine from this site called AngelCurves. I would check the dimensions before committing to one because most of them are for shorter torsos and I had to exchange mine.


bikini 2Never in my life would I have worn a bikini in public and loved how I looked in it until I stopped giving a shit about what everyone else thought. I can wear what I want, when I want now and my confidence is through the roof because of it. Eating clean and working out have played a huge role in this as well but at the end of the day, I made the decision to stop listening to those little voices in my head. Be bold and take a leap of faith

with your wardrobe. If you want to wear a tube top..go for it! I just bought mine a month ago and I can’t live without it now. I am probably going to order a few more after I post this tonight lol.

Try to do something you normally wouldn’t this summer. You might surprise yourself and actually like it.


Meet the Newest Foster

Found this hidden gem in Long Beach thanks to one of my new best friends! You won’t believe how historic this town is. I will try to take photos at every spot and post it on here. Next stop: Anchor Beach!

I also need to take a photo of Drake and Josh’s school/ the school where they filmed American Pie and a few other famous shows and commercials. I was there today but only took a short video! It was Callie’s old high school before she was at Anchor Beach too!


fosters 3

Long Beach, CA 7.31.18


Update to the update// Health problems/rant

Things have turned around since my last post.

That mark on my breast is a sunburn and is nothing serious. I went to planned parenthood for my breast exam and was able to get examined at no cost because I qualified for this program that they offer to students. I went in there expecting a referral to get a mammogram and her being super concerned, but the complete opposite happened. She asked me about my past history and told me that what I was feeling and experiencing was completely normal in women with large breasts. After, she said it was nothing serious and that I needed to come back in 3 months for a follow-up.

The wifi people are supposed to show up this Friday and if they don’t come I am going to kick someone’s ass. Seriously, I am so beyond done with them.

On the bright side: S.O.A.R. aka orientation went really well and I actually enjoyed it. I was able to sign up for every class I needed and a few that I was really interested in too. I found out that it’s not too late for me to declare a minor as well so that also made me really excited about this journey at CSULB. I am now a Journalism major and an English minor with an emphasis on creative writing. How amazing does that sound!!!

Channeling my inner Hilary in Beauty and the Briefcase rn…hilary duff

Fun fact: HILARY DUFF IS MY IDOL…like you know how everyone has that one famous person that they idolize and aspire to be? Mine’s Hilary Duffffff! She is everything and I have looked up to her since she was little Lizzie McGuire. AHHH I FUCKING LOVE HER!!!! LIKE I JUST UGHHHH IF I COULD MEET ANY CELEBRITY IN THE ENTIRE WORLD I WOULD PICK HER IN A HEARTBEAT! I am currently fangirling over a new show that she’s in called Younger..if you haven’t seen it yet you’re missing out! Also, simultaneously blasting her music on my Spotify rn…I told you I’m obsessed.

ANNNYWHOOOOO….back to me

I am going to be posting a lot more now because I really enjoy making these lame little posts and updates and it lets me reflect on everything. This is where you can tell me what things I should post because I want to expand my horizons a bit more. I cook every single night so I have a bunch of food pics and tips I can post. Everyone in my family is a chef/cook so it’s in my blood and I LOOOVE cooking.

I also live in Long Beach now so I can post little things about my adventures and stuff around here. There are so many exciting things to see in Long Beach. Did you know that a bunch of your favorite TV shows and movies have little pieces filmed right here in my town? I met this friend who actually took me to his old high school and showed me where they filmed Drake and Josh and American Pie! I also visited the Fosters house today. You know that show where a lesbian couple adopt a bunch of kids and call themselves The Fosters? Yeahhhhh one of my favorite shows!  ooooh and that scene where they shot the football game in Alvin and the Chipmunks…yeahhhh that’s here tooooooooo..located right next to the CSULB “DIRTBAGS” baseball stadium.

I am also open to posting makeup and outfit details because I know that’s trending rn too. Just lmkkkk. I get asked about my makeup all the time but I feel like there are so many people doing the same thing already I have to come up with a creative way of posting my tips and tricks.