Blessings πŸ™

The world works in mysterious ways

Life going by like a phase

Day and night pass

Making memories to last

The present a gift

The past a lesson

Constantly counting my blessings

Praising God in each step

Humans are complex

No two are alike

Ways we live our life

The way we see the world

Each lesson in disguise

Each burden a blessing

Never realizing till after

It was a journey worth taking

Living with no regrets

Everything happens for a reason

No reason to be upset

Or resent the life we are given

This is how I choose to see the world

embracing my scars

Creating a life worth living

Don’t let it pass you by

Life is over in the blink of an eye

TOODALOO JW

Life update: Health Probs//Rant

Life has a weird way of throwing new things at you.

Yesterday I woke up to find this peculiar large red spot on my breast. I already have a history of breast pain and cysts but this was just the icing on the cake of worries in my life right now. I just signed up for insurance through CA covered someshit..which, by the way, sucks so much ass because I have to pay helllla money each visit on top of the monthly insurance deductible. I was supposed to get it checked out today but I had other things I had to do.

First of all, I do not have wifi in the apt and I won’t be able to get it all set up until the third of August. We were scheduled to have a licensed technician come and install it today but the idiots got the address wrong and called the wrong phone number when they did “arrive” today. I spent all day on my toes expecting someone to give me a call and nothing. I made the appointment two weeks ago because today was the first day they had available in their bullshit scheduling system. Also, there are only two companies that can provide wireless service in my area because there is this weird law that sections off certain areas to different providers. In my case, I only have the option of getting wifi with Frontier and Spectrum..both of which charge sooo much money and suck the same amount of ass. Like can there please be a student discount on everything in life? Just flash your student ID and get free shit like a celebrity because we already have to go through so much bull just to get an education in this country there should be some type of benefits provided.

Second, I had my first dentist appointment in forever today. I’ve been lagging because once again..IT’S SO GOD DAMN EXPENSIVE. I have three major cavities that I need to get filled and all 4 of my wisdom teeth need to be pulled. So once again, America has fucked me over and I need to pay 1500 for my stupid teeth to stop hurting.

Third of all, my orientation is around the corner and I already know I’m not going to be able to get the classes that I want/need because the system is bullshit. I go to CSU Long Beach and I already have my classes picked out and everything because I am a transfer student so I thought it was going to be a piece of cake when I go in for SOAR a.k.a. orientation. I have them all in my cart..the times work with my work schedule and everything. K, my roommate went on the first day and said that classes fill up so fast she could only get one class in her cart approved! This pisses me off because we can’t even register until we attend soar because they put a hold on your account. I just can’t afford to take random classes at random times because I need to be able to make rent. I work 35-40 hours a week so I was planning on cramming 15 units into two days of school and having a “rest” day on Mondays so that I could get caught up with all of my assignments. I moved out here with no support from anyone so obviously, I have to put my work first. I hope its gonna work out in the end because I am so fucking stressed right now.

My breasts are fucking swollen and they hurt every time I get stressed out. This might be TMI but its such a burden. If there are any others out there who have this issue you know what I’m talking about. This is my blog so I feel like I can say exactly how I feel and whats on my mind but this is a HUGE concern right now. I am going to the doctors to get it checked out tomorrow so wish me luck

On the bright side: My roommate and housemate situation are great and I absolutely love Long Beach. I don’t think I could ever move back to the Bay Area to be completely honest. There is so much to do here and I fucking work in LA! Like I have everything I could have ever wanted and more. I am so blessed and so thankful for the daily blessings. Thank God for the blessings I have in my life. Thank God for making me a strong, hardworking and ambitious individual. Thank God for this opportunity to move out here and making one of my biggest dreams come true. Thank God for my girls who I talk to all the time, no amount of distance could ever keep us apart and I can’t believe I have SO many that I can count on. Thank God for my mother and stepdad for being there for me. They call me 15 million times a day which gets annoying but every time they call I get a bit more homesick and want to go see them. I don’t miss Fremont or living in the Bay Area but I do miss my family and friends that were sooo close to me. I don’t feel lonely here tho which is kinda crazy.

THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING

TOODALOO JW