In autopilot Watching The world around me From the front row I see fog Clouds surrounding me Blissful Air pressure drops I feel light In the clouds I float Just enough time to look around realize That no one Has offered Any peanuts On this flight I am alone My body stone Dragging me down…… Continue reading Disassociation
my depression is a veil that impairs my vision forced to obey oppressed I stay unable to escape this pre-enlightened state I can’t get myself to remove it. My depression is an ocean powerful it pulls me under I drown, slowly in my thoughts rocking back and forth I begin to feel seasick and the…… Continue reading My depression is many things.
I toss and turn On the second hand mattress I bought off the last girl Who lived in this room I dream of a future Filled with luxury Of a stable family A life that is anything But this one I’m tired Of struggling And living I’d be lying If I said I hadn’t thought…… Continue reading 2am thoughts
A lotus flower grows in mud Even through dirt the flowers bud Rising above adversity Untouched and unsoiled water glides off its petals with ease Gently drifting, guided by the breeze symbol of strength And peace In awe at the sight of it A troubled past Leads to a beautiful future If you learn to…… Continue reading Live like the Lotus
I want to start by saying that I absolutely hate labels so this is going to be a challenging post to write and publish. I have PTSD..a mental illness that affects over three million people every year. It’s exhausting to deal with and those closest to you won’t understand what your going through or even…… Continue reading Silent suffering; my PTSD story.
I had an interesting conversation with a wonderful woman on the phone while I was trying to apply for Medical today. (I thought I might give it a shot because at this point I have nothing left to loose now that I am officially unemployed.) She told me about how scary it is to grow…… Continue reading For Stephon Clark may he rest in paradise
Mental health matters! Please don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Your feelings are valid and if you are in a bad place in your life right now it’s understandable. I feel like I needed to create this post to raise awareness because mental health disorders are so powerful and usually difficult to overcome. It…… Continue reading Mental Health Matters ;